from my myspace… (where i almost always write in lowercase… the softer more intimate style in my opinion…)

i’m re-posting because it captures what i am experiencing right now… and i know some of you might be feeling the same self awareness and acceptance in different ways…

today was amazing…i felt like i accomplished so much. i deep cleaned and painted in my old apartment as to provide the new tenant with a lovely new bright space without smudgey walls and marks from wear in addition to hoping for some good living space karma to come back in my direction. i have a long way to go with my apartment but it is starting to come together… i also took care of paperwork.

i ended my evening with a delicious dinner at my favorite spot in chinatown with two of my oldest friends from saudi. we had so many shared smiles, laughs, intense political discussions, and sang french songs at a french canadian party afterward. i met an amazing independent italian woman and a russian woman with such a strong and youthful energy that captured and inspired me… after the bar we took a stroll in bryant park at night, had santorini wine at a fabulous Greek restaurant, and shared cheese, greek pastries, and fresh olives…. it was heavenly…

on my walk home… i was light on my feet, coltrane soothing me as i moved. i walked past my apartment because i couldn’t stop moving and gliding through the streets… i felt home in new york today… and this feeling is starting to become more common.

floating and imagining the sweet hereafter… that it would smell and taste and feel like dancing and dining at a fabulous Greek soiree…

tipsy? yes… but mostly just feeling… ALIVE.

i’m now going to soak in the seaweed and salt infused bubble bath i am running in the bathroom and read some bellhooks. i haven’t had a bathtub of my own in a very long time and it feels amazing… sigh… i will be in there until my skin shrivels like a prune… just feeling the sensation of water on skin… and enjoying the freedom of my new space… and the possibilities that come with change.

i love this life.