I’m sorry I haven’t really blogged about school yet, GHQ!
Anyways, to get started…
I really love the school. I have a lot more freedom then at my old school, (free periods, choosing classes and electives, etc.) but I have been having some issues.
This summer was a huge peaceful learning experience. I learned so much about myself and love, the things I love, peace, family, just everything, but when I got to school I didn’t/don’t know how to have both. How to have my life at school, and keep intouch/still have/be a part of the life that I developed over the summer. Someday I know they will peacefully become one, an effortless attempt to be my true and whole self, but I’ve been having a little trouble with that lately. It’s hard to love the things that I learned to love over the summer, without school in my way, and now go to school and not let that affect the real me. I guess it all comes with time, but that doesn’t change that right now I don’t completely know how to cope. This time I don’t have an automatic resolution. I guess the only possible way to deal with it at all without truly hurting or running away from the real me is to just let it all happen. If it’s meant to happen it will. And to have faith that no matter what I will always end up being me and that the things that I love and that love me will always me there for me, including myself.
5 responses so far ↓
1 Jamia // Sep 15, 2007 at 3:26 am
We are constantly evolving. I’m going through much of this right now because of a new transition in my life and i’m turning twenty seven in less than a month! “) You’re right on track… As long as you love yourself and keep doing what you’re doing… you’ll end up where you need to end up and you’ll find that peace! I’m working on it too! xo
2 Kate // Sep 16, 2007 at 12:44 am
oh maddie, we are 10 years apart, but boy are we both going through the exact same things. it’s funny, because i’ve always been told i’m young at heart and you seem so wise beyond your years. keep writing, you’re fabulous!
3 Maddie Lear // Sep 16, 2007 at 5:28 pm
Thanks so much for all of the love Jamia and Kate! I love you guys sooooo wonderfully much, all of you guys, and Gh
4 Maddie Lear // Sep 16, 2007 at 5:28 pm
q also! xoxoxxoxopeaceandlovexoxoxxoo
5 Denise // Sep 27, 2007 at 9:29 pm
Life is great - ALL of it - summer obviously has it’s strong points and school does too - appreciating both for what they are/how they’re so different is a good thing!
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